just to share a song..
those who watches gong should be familiar with it.
argh;
sorry to have put it in this section..
cannot find a suitable place.
im as babo as what the singer sang in the song la..
babo is a korean word;
find out urself what it means.
urhahaha~

BYE!

sarang hamneeda? aneeyo. (=

skipped school becos of my flu.
but now.. seems like recovering fast. *whistle~
i wonder why some people will only find me when they needed help
if not;
they just slap their butt and go.
hmm?
im upset though..
would you like to be treated the same as what you did?

wanna sleep actually but moma told me not to as i've just eaten..
alright then, once i turned on the com, moma will have a hard time asking me to sleep later.
urhahahahur~. cough*
im sick.
sore throat;
flu;
headache;
fever.
..dying

but today during class damn funny.
wanna lmao la.. Lol

ps: now cow can eat his own bullshitss~ MOO.

gave everyone a great scare during work. i've been trying not to vent this bottled up feelings.. but its just too strong. furthermore, another similar incident occured today and im really pissed with it. so, my face was like damn black. no smile. totally IGNORANT. just walk pass everyone without acknowledging their pressence.. whoever calls me, i just pretended that its vacuum.
but after talking with susan, and the *stupid-name-calling -__-" from my super lame colleagues, everthing is better now.. thanks for consolling and cheering me up (=
however, i have to apologise for giving them my so-fcuked-up attitude.. victor, ah weng, shunfa, susan, john, and the chefs (paiseh ah, the names i forgot).
im sorry. aha, can see all of you really freaked out.
guess everything went back to normal during night time.. at least we're smiling at each other again. (=

oh me, i've been rather sickly nowadays. firstly flu (im still having it now though), then today "stomach wind".. apply medicated oil also no use. sian.
hmm,
i know..
its the curse of the chawamushi. X=

..maybe i need to stop eating it for a few months.

im tired, im hungry. i feel dead. its hard to find replacement for work nowadays though, people are seemingly unwilling to work..
and i found the schedule rather weird. for next week, i've filled in fri night, sat half and sun off(i think). but they only gave me fri night and sunday half. wth, i cannot work on sun as i need to to cdp la. i know they've been giving me lesser and lesser schedule.. as in like you-are-less-efficient that type of attitide. sometimes, i cant understand what the managers said or planned. yea, i mean MANAGERS. pls take note of the letter "S" as i mean plural. okay, whatever. lets not beat around the bush. i mean koda san and gigi.
scenario 1:
firstly, said koda san: you, serve only. pohling, refill tea.
me and pohling: okay okay.
gigi: eh, help takako at tatami/help me get nth tea + refill for table XX.
me: okay..
coincidentally, koda san saw pohling and me holding tea pot each.
koda san: *furious* you, vannessa. you cannot refill yo.
you only serve food, UNDERSTAND.
me: alright. *with "A BRIGHT BIG SMILEEEE"*
okay dear readers. as you can see, how can i possibly say: " gigi san, i cant help you pour tea as im not given the role to." sounds funny? yea, it is and superb that i wanna LMAO.
scenario 2:
gigi: vannessa, you serve food and set settings only. you dun order today.
deng yi xia hui heng ran. okay, ting dong ma? dun order anything..
if customer want order something, call takako/ yong yee/herself/michael etc etc to order.
me: okay. *nods head*
okay, and everyone went around to do their part of what they are told to.
customer: *looks around* and finally spotted me walking pass. *delighted* excuse me, miss.
may i order XXX, XXXX etc etc.
me: i looked around.. no one is free. and saw gigi walking by. *shouted* GIGI~! table XX want
to take orders.. i stood there waiting for her response for abt 5 seconds. AND SHE DIN
COME BACK. so i turned and look at customer.
customer: *black faced* with the oh-what-the-hell-service-system look.
me: sorry.. maybe i can take your order.
after that, i headed to the key punching machine to key in. and gigi saw me doing that.
gigi: dou jiao ni bu yao take order liao!
me: mei you loh, wo jiao ni dan shi ni mei you hui da wo!!
gigi: you meh? with the ULTRA DOUBTFUL look.
nvm nvm, you go back to do your things. yi hou bu yao take order jiu shi le.
me: *said silently* okay, whatever.
okay now, is people really undergoing stress or what. i need an explanation, a vivid one.
im just speaking from my heart, no offends. initially, i've to admit that i really enjoyed working.
waking upon every morning with yes-im-going-work-again attitude. now, im sad to say this feeling had somehow drifted off. one reason or another. i may dislike work now but please dun made me hate it. certain times, i may seem blur or "free". but i really did my best to ensure nothing goes wrong. cater to every customer needs. i even asked them about the food while clearing off their table, giving them rakuzen namecards, chatted and introduces them the various speciality of food style rakuzen provides. but all these things seem blind to certain people. whats in their mind and perception totally differs from what i actually did. im sorry, the reason for posting this entry is because im losing already.. the confidence, the effort, the faith, everything that i had previously. im beginning to have the sack-me-for-all-i-care attitude which i dun wish to make it really happen. however, im really glad that there are still people that really appreciates what i've done.
E.g. the customers. for now, if they came back again. they'll be like: hello, vannessa! (=
susan, and most of the pts or fts. maybe they are the ones that really knew.
or they are just in the same boat as me.
sometimes, i ponder. we're just the 17 or18 years old students that are working for only extra pocket money. to keep things in short, we dun need this to keep us alive or ensure our next meal. we've already did our part, honestly. firstly, seldom are we late for work.. nor have we done alot of errors/wrong orders.. sloppy, slow, draggy, STUCKED UP ATTITUDE? NO.
thus, your criticism cum sarcastism will not pull us nearer, but rather, scare us off.
how many restaurant staff can you see in singapore that will stay back to eat together after work? to laugh and share jokes together when atmosphere become tensed? to shout irashaimase and arigato gozaimasu sincerely and loudly? willing to share burden (as in, you clear table, i help you get settings)?
from what i've mentioned, i can say hardly. this is not the first restaurant that im working as a waitress. from my pass experience, NONE OF THE STATED EXAMPLE EXISTED OR HAPPENED. as the clock shows time to knock off and 2 mins later or so, not a soul is to be seen.
thus, treasure it people. you can ask for more/upgrade us, but in a polite and friendly way of cos. (=

sigh. you people are getting on my nerves!! poor thing me. ARGH.
shall turn all of you to frogSs! *waves the wand* ..ding diNG!
muahahahaha~

okay, i know im nuts already.
life been stress la.
=X

BYE.

Im suffering more and more from my barbie-ness.
from waking up on time for school; to being late for the first half hour; to skipping the first lecture; and now, pon-ing the whole of today and only went for 1 tutorial.
Hmm..
I need to find a cure.

today damn suaaaay. wanna send my iPod for service de. but.. but.. the shop is closed for stock take!! one word: fcuk. go all the way to cine and its closed. -_-" anyway, school was bored today and EXTREMELY. had only ms access and fom lec. thats all can. if its not for taking the stupid 5% ms quiz, i could have skipped school.
blaaa, whatever.

ps: thenerves are the best! the limelight will be all yours tonight man. ((=

im eyeing on these 2 gadgets! dun intend to buy a phone with a high resolution cam though, as i've already got my lumix! (x ..thus a 3G will do, and i found SE k618i =D !
plus my iPod just announces its death. argh, the hard drive crashed. )'= R.I.P*
nevermind, it'll soon be replaced by creative zen v! ((=

insomnia.. headache. whats going on with me. 1 year never gets sick le. think it'll hit me badly this time.. and with the haze. oh well, dying. fortunately, tmr is a public hol. sucha blessing to be able to woke up late. it has been weeks since im waking up later than 10 or 11am. weekends are taken up by work, weekdays by school. although i cant feel it, but i guess my body will go berserk soon. i have never been out from 9am to 12.30am without rest until recently. maybe im just a workaholic, enjoy working rather than giving myself a rest. or im just a freak who cant feel any tiredness. well, i could say all of the above..
anyway! i have many things in mind to accomplish before dec. Namely:
1) a creative zen v/vi
2) a good movie
3) a rebonding. Emm, what about perm?
4) a dinner at rakuzen with dearies and darlings. oh, susssaaan~ I WANT MARU BENTO (x
5) a new phone.
6) a 2GB memory card for my cam. tsk tsk*
7) win lottery (okay, skip~)
8) sent my iPod for complete repair
9) finish watching goong (oh no, that means no more YUL )'= sob..)
10) a complete revamp of my wardrobe. *this applies only when factor 7 comes true* =D

GOODNITE WORLD. tata~

headache!! argh.. ahpei also headache. really hao jie mei! so coincidence.. LOL (x

POWERJAM-FINAL@zouk

25th oct wednesday, 9pm performance starts.

PARTY till late.

i'll be truly glad if i can go.. but think they ton-ing. oh well.. saded )'=

sian. got chased home at 830pm. freakingly upset about it. my CHAWAMUSHI. damn it. but work today was fun! hiak hiak hiak~ crap all the way. but we're still the best okay. no errors, no wrong order and therefore, no complains!! hees.. however, cant believe today lunch broke 6K.. thought i was practically doingnothing. -___-"
one last thing. i wanna conclude that im suffering from number deficiency, sad but true.. i cant count properly )'=

is all my fault. my stomach feels weird now. blame me for eating too much. 3 chawamushis, 1 full bowl of rice, coke, chestnut drink + ume. )= can imagine my stomach churning like mad.

okay
slay me;
im going to SLEEEEP no matter how bad insomnia haunts me.

just to share with all of you a very CONSIDERATE action by our beloved singaporean. from what u can see, an obasan is parking her stupid bycicle and baby stroller in the center of the pathway. and she showed no signs to move them to the side even though theres a lot of people walking by. trust me, shes a freak. i simply cant stand it.

im deadbeat, DEADBEAT!! just got home from rakuzen an hour ago. bathed and now in front of the com.. today sales broke 10K again! woohoo~ and we had alot of food to eat la.. i ate (2 chawamushi + 1 bowl rice + 1 ebitten sushi + 1 salmon sushi + 1 squid ssm + godiva choc + hotate mentaimayo + UME! ) omg, thats how much i ate la.. but it sums up to be happy vann (= at least my hard work gets paid off.. today ran around the restuarant like mad.. firstly asked me to take care tatami room, refill ocha blaa. and later on asked me to serve food, clear settings only. then not long after asked me be runner! diaoo~ so what exactly is my role today? sleeeeeep.....
oh me, just realised exams are lurking in 3 weeks time. argh! and im lagging behind like shit..
and 2 more weeks will be our E-learning.. sorry! but no rkz during that period. guess i wont be working all the way until err.. end of dec? cos by then will be our TERM BREAK.. oh yes. 3 weeks of hols. =D
thats all;

BYE. back to my home, THE LALALAND.

having the lab lesson now.. im so tired. *yawn* been sleeping at 2am everyday. watching goong like nobody's business. i wanna emphasise again, YUL is damn gorgeous. im mesmerised by him in the show can. oh me, but hes in korea. sigh. sian, this is the second time im writing this entry la. the teacher closes the window previously. eeks, i should have told her to save for me. heh~
i din bring my jacket today and the room is freezing~ )= my bag is too heavy from the uniform. YA, im going to work at rkz later. nope, im not enthusiastic about it.. not at all as im deadbeat. so hope boss wont give me problems today.
oops, just heard rumblings in my stomach. im hungry~ lesson this semester start at almost 8am everyday, so hardly had any proper breakfast. only a cup of milo maybe? and thats not enough for me, definitely. hmm.. feel like changing my blog skin. but time is like argh~ work; school;sleepgoong (; really constraint. the rest of my free time already taken up for work.
haix, suddenly thought of my first day at rkz. so nostalgic la (*sorry for being so emo*).. really miss debbie, christie, peiwen & christina. the first 3 dumbie really made my day at work! working with them is really funny. LOL. christina- fierce. already got used to her scoldings and nagging. but i know all of that are for our own good, and i truly appreciate it. without her, i wont end up in rkz.
stop here bah,

BYE.

to someone: no, that entry is not about you. be rest assured yea, its already the past. just pray things will go as per normal. (= if i've written anything thats misleading to you, dun get offended.. cos its really not about you.
i just wanna apologise for whats happening all this while, surely have created you problems.
im sorry, such things shouldn't have happened. once again, im sorry.

i dun see why u gave it a damn.
its like poking your nose into something that you dun have the right to.
maybe you are, but definitely indirectly.
you sounded as if you're in concern about the whole issue..
however, somehow theres this kind of contradiction in your text which upset me.
it seems you're reverting the main problem to me, while i apparantly did nothing.
why should i care so much when i know im fully awake now?
i treated everything as normal yea..
well, its not a pretty big deal anyway.. parts and parcel of life though.
well, theres nothing you should do. cos the fact lies in me, not you alright?
once im done with sweeping off the not-to-bes, everything will be fine.. truly fine.
i can assured that im already done with almost 100 percent, oops but perfect.
dun worry yea, things are not what you think it seems to be. (=

just got home from work.. tired.
sales not bad today..quite alot of humans. LOL
oh me, i nearly laughed my ass off la.
all thanks to susan, yong, xiang, allen, sebas & john!
stupid table 1.. the couple french kiss dunno how many times -_____-
john saw and say " they not tired meh, later still need to eat de leh"..
OMG, damn funny la..
but i cannot stand it.. zai ze mo shuo ye shi public, dun need to kiss until so passionately de!furthermore, i have to wait for them to finish their "biz" so to sign the bill !
wa liew~ diaoz
okie, thats all for today;

GOODNITE world. (=

OMG. I love yul.
I want to fly to korea.
=D
I'm nuts.
Hees;
bye!

yipee!! i'll NOT be working tomorrow.. lalala~
but theres no difference can. cos that time will be replaced by more projects.. )'=
nevermind, at least i dun need to travel all the way from dover to millenia walk + my bag wont weigh a ton from my uni. phew~
time flies and now is tueday.. almost half the week have passed by. which means i got 3 more days to working in rkz. sigh, tired. imagine after a long day in school and still need to use your reserve energy in servicing customers. and mind you, its not as if to serve those nice type loh.. its the completely demanding and kb kind. fcuk. how i wish i can be runner la.. stay inside kitchen, definitely better can. bo bian, im always chosen to be receptionist or take orders. no skill in runner job..
sian, why am i always talking abt work?
suan le.

BYE.
ps: i've got flu, feeling terrible )=

severe time constraint!!
i really cant cope with both work and studies, especially with projects/tests coming up.. more & MORE! wanna switch back with yun on wednesday, but he cant make it. how sad )= so it will be
8am to 12pm
tutorials + lectures
12pm to 5pm
meetup for CD presentation next mon
6pm to 10pm
work at RKZ..
THAT MEANS i need to chiong from 8am all the way to 10pm!!
with NO BREAKS in between my darlings..
best part: 8am lesson next morning -_-"

can i quit rkz?..
=X
okay, dun kill me su. aha, can imagine your face fuming..
thats all;

BYE.

step out of my life, thanks.
im running away. i dun want to have any conversation with you, be it work or others.
i dun wish to be seen as "on purpose". i prefer to take the first step than you shunning me, cos the feeling is TERRIBLE..
or maybe im not prepared to treat everything the same as before.
i felt like a fool, as naive as a child;
and such feeling could be so over-whelming that i can give up everything so that i wont see you again..
thats all.

BYE.

sch was bored today.
had only photography, econs and pacc lec.
sian. the photography teacher no skill can.
sorry ar, im speaking the truth & my friends agree with me also la.
the pictures he taken arevery normal.
ie. those which u just snap the shutter without giving a second thought one. -__-"
*thats the type of pictures he produced la* =X
seriously, u can randomly pick a few photos from the class
and u can see its much much better la. (at least we pose and pose until we get the perfect shot. hmpf!!) ..diao-
went marina square to shop for allen's pressie with susan. heng, econs tut cancelled. yipeee~
omg, ALLEN HO FEILONG! u better like the present la. if not, u'll get it from susan and/or ME!
spent like 1 hour deciding the best one can.. my brain juice all gone liao. )=
after marina sq-ed jiu went home. hate the journey.. slept all the way.
okay, missbarbielalaworld. (=
GOODNITE.

my new blog;
my new everything.
=)